After a bit of how-will-I-get-there-and-back drama, my friend Jimmy was able to drive me to the hospital in High River. What a champ!
I had a sign-in at 10 o'clock as my surgery was scheduled for 11:30, and after the regular strip down to a chilly opens-to-the-back gown and pregnancy test, my nurse put in an IV.
Now, I'd like to say that the experience was void of discomfort, but no.
I'm a pretty anxious person when it comes to medical stuff. Sure, I stomp around all confident
and opinionated, but when it comes to being cut open, I'm shaking like a leaf. My intake nurse seemed clumsy. Bumping into things, knocking stuff over...not really in the excusable bad day way, but in the way were she seemed like she didn't really know what her elbow was doing all the time, even though it's only inches away from her hand. In my nervousness I asked her (just before she stuck me with the IV), "Are you good at this?" Her response was, "I've been in maternity for 30 years." I replied, "Yeah, that's not what I asked." In hindsight, I believe she may have taken the question personally.
So she poked me really hard and it hurt and I bled a lot. I totally cried and yelled a little bit. I hate getting IVs. Luck on my side, I'll never ever need another one. She also got the IV tangled in the sleeve of my gown. The single, foot-wide sleeve on my hospital gown. In the sleeve, out of the sleeve. That didn't work, still tangled. Repeat.
So I sat on the bed in misery, the following thought running through my mind:
WHAT IF I'M MAKING A MISTAKE?
What if I decide after the surgery that I'm not really as sure as I thought I was?
Should I cancel?
It's too late to cancel. Do you think I could run away?
No, you'd have to pull out the IV, idiot.
Oh god, I'm going to die. I am. Goodbye world.
Okay, you're not going to die. You'll be fine. This is the right thing. You know this.
And then a fresh baby (the mother was being coached how to breast feed for the first time) in the curtained area next to mine started to cry. Loudly.
It actually made me feel a lot better. I knew I was making the right choice.
As I was wheeled into the OR, my nurse bumped me into walls, counters, the door. I actually had to catch the IV line so it didn't get stuck on the door handle and yank out of me. I was in quite a state.
Then I saw my surgeon. The incredible Dr. Bailey. She took one look at my face, sent the nurse away, gave me a blanket, and in all of this, calmed me down completely. I clarified where she'd be cutting me (in my belly button and the width of 4-5 fingers below that) and I was walked into the OR proper.
I skootched up onto the table and reclined. The anaesthetist started messing around with my IV because it wasn't flowing properly and I felt a small but incredibly painful explosion in my hand. A clot had developed and obviously needed to be cleared before he could do any sedating. I was crying again at this point, so one of the OR nurses gave me a bunch of oxygen and then I was made unconscious, thank goodness.
My mother is the one who came to pick me up, although I have no memory of it. Apparently I dressed myself (rather slowly, much to my mother's annoyance) and walked out of the hospital on my own.
I was prescribed 600mg tablets of ibuprofen because codeine makes me barf and away I went.
The surgery was on Wednesday and I was back to work on Friday. Aside from discomfort wearing jeans, I felt great! I also have rad little scars.
My recovery in the last month has been easy. Zero complications, only a smidge of pain for the first few days when a cat stepped on my gut, and a little bit of swelling.
I made the right choice and I'm glad I did it.